Monday, May 3, 2010

life oh life...

errmmm...

what would you do if tongue slipping happens or people misinterpret your meaning?

yeah...i have to admit that reading people's thought and actually listening to their tone has great differences...

reading - we can make our own conclusion...people might misinterpret your intention...you might just want to joke on something but some people interpret it as something serious..or worse, our written thought or comments may hurt other people...

in this situation? what would you do?

alas...sometimes, it is the only way that we could express ourselves...

me, myself..for once...i love to say what i want to say...and writing it down gives so much satisfaction..and that's why this blog exists...

but i have to admit...i also have my own private convensional diary where the only person who has the access to its content is ME..(erm..do i sound selfish & arrogant?...erm...*thinking hard*) this one magical book has all my deepest, darkest or perhaps, dirtiest secrets ever...nay..I'm lying..(am I?)

as an individual with close realtionship with family, everything or anything that my uncles or aunties or cousins or even the slightest thing that granny says will leave quite a big impact to me...or maybe in some cases, it will leave a deep cut in my heart...and time will heal (this is the principle that i strongly believe)..yeah..as time flies, the cut will heal...but the scar is there...

every comments that families made about me is vital to me...it is important to my image, my persona and yes...it is important for me to appear *KIND* or *NICE* in front of my family...even though it means that I am PLASTIC...so that they would not think that I am a *B***** one...(yeah..how hypocrite I am..)

the truth...

I am SO SCARED that my actions or words will hurt any of my aunties or uncles or cousins...I will try to be nice...I try to be warm...because families to me is the must-have elements to be happy in life...and all my uncles and aunties are just like my mother and father...hurting them means that I am hurting my parents...but deep inside me..I AM AFRAID...so, I scrutinsed myself a lot (at times, it feels like I am torturing myself...) it is excruciatingly tired..

so what? just be nice and kind then...avoid hurting their feelings...(probably, that's what people would advise me)...hell yeah..talking is easy...I am for one, a person with bad mouth (Mulut laser - kata orang Melayu)...so..do you see what I mean? I will always hurt people with my comments (verbal or wtitten).. because for me, I would love to be honest..

but sometimes, my comment was meant to be a joke...
but people think of it in different direction..
hell yeah...life is tiring...

what would you do if this kind of thing happens?

*bila nak berubah? Bila nak jadi muslimah yg baik nih?*

6 comments:

Aida Ikmal said...

trying to satisfy people around us is simply not necessary. it's impossible to satisfy all the people around us cause they will always happen to find some reasons to put us down. they're never satisfied no matter how hard we try. there will always be people who will simply find mistakes on the things we do. so, be patient, and most importantly, be yourself. don't sweat in making everyone happy, or you'll end up making yourself unhappy :)

azimah-Butik Nur Kasih said...

erks...klu ada org tanya mcm tu kat kak zimah....nak jawap apa erk? terkedu. blh jwp mcm ni tak: ente tu rasa diri dah cukup baik ke tanya org mcm ni???? hahahaha

Nur Madihah Hassan Borhan said...

salam teacher..rindula..jemput ziarah my blog..just sharing..hehe..
http://nurtaqwamujahadah.blogspot.com..dah lame fllw blog nh tp tade tmpt nak tgglkan jejak..huhu

huda.othman said...

aida - huhu...letihnya gua mau jadik budak baik ni bila diri sendri taklah baik mana pon..huhu...(stress mode ni...)

kak zimah - hehe..best betol kalau boleh jawab mcm yg akak cadangkan tue..puas hati, jiwa & raga..hehe

madihah - tq kerana sudi meninggalkan jejak disini..hehe..insyaallah..sy akan lawat blog madihah..take care

ermahida said...

teacher husa
your story about the helium guys really touched my heartlah...till I crying....
thanks teacher..... when read ur post... Im missing the time when im was one of them.....yeah... helium always be the great....

huda.othman said...

mid - harap2 dah sehat la ye..rugi u tak join manung aritue..hehe..mmg best + happening habes..(luqman knows better cos he followed us!)

hehehe..helium memang sentiasa best! walaupun selalu kalah...tapi..u guys are always the best for me...saya sangat sayang giler ahli2 rumah helium...can't imagine if one day i have to be transfered to other house! hehe

the wise one

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~~Scholastics~~



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