the perfect gifts

the joy of my life - my life, my soul, my everything

i am a person with close-knit connection with my family (with many cousins - big & small, old & young)...though i don't have siblings, yet these people (the cousins) are very important to me...their laugh, spontaneous responses, innocent looks, "i'm-not-guilty" expressions even though, yes, they are indeed guilty - are the joy of my life...

mereka mutiara hati yang menghiburkan di kala kekusutan menjelma, mendamaikan hati di celah-celah kesibukan hidup, membahagiakan perasaan tatkala keresahan melanda, menyejukkan jiwa tatkala dugaan menjengah...

i am blessed

with fortune, love and affection

i am lucky

to be alive, surrounded by families

i am truly indebted to Allah

for all the happiness, joy and sorrow

that create wonders in my life

Thank you Allah

for these perfect gifts"

the crimson love - with grandma @ tok

the one vital thing that could never be replaced by anything

wishing our lives to be blessed forever with love - along, me, My mom, Ummi, kakcik

without any of you, life would be incomplete

the happy faces - Ayuni, Aidid & Qashrina

thier laughter brings happiness to the world









look at the cheeky, domineering Alyssa Qashrina (wearing white) and the gentle, demure Ayuni Illya (wearing blue-black dress)









the protege of 350, jln. bawah, penaga:

the fantastic four of BIG cousins - Kakcik, Along, Angah, Huda (during Along's engagement day)




the unbeatable heroes

their acts crack your head =) - nevertheless, they are still the adorable kids who add colours to my world

read..read..read

i often heard media says that Malaysians are lazy to read or Malaysians rarely read books as compared to other nations in the world..i always thought that how wrong they were..Malaysians do read - they read blogs, newspaper, comics and so on...as for me, reading is fun! how could they portray Malaysians as lazy!!!

nonetheless, when i started my teaching career last year, i found one distressing fact:

---> my students could not even write an engaging essay, an interesting story or even the correct facts..and please bear in mind, these are intelligent students (they study in selected residential schools in the country)

how sad is the situation?

those who are in my class know better when i always:

--- nag at them - for their grammar

--- scold them - when they couldn't finish the essay right on time..or even if they did, their essays were haywired; disorganised, boring, lame, unengaging and so on.(you name it - all those bad adjectives)

at one time, i blamed myself for being a lousy teacher. i was too busy with extra cocurricular activities. so,i couldn't teach them properly. i negelected them.i wasn't good at delivering my lesson. i didn't know how to integrate fun in my lesson, that was why my students performed badly.and the list of the excuses was so long. i was depressed.

thinking myself as a failure was unbearable - thus, i retorted.

i did a research and analysis. (more like observation and asking questions) why there are students who could really write well (you bet, their essays are flawless in term of grammar errors plus the language flare are so proficient. they beat me at times. but most importantly, their ideas are so engaging, so creative)

i found out the de facto - it is because they are avid readers.they read A LOT. and for those who don't really perform well - they DON'T read even a single book/novel in a year

what they really care is their science subjects - physics, chemistry, biology, add maths.

yup...most of them scored 9A's/10A's in SPM yet their English was B.this is the reason why English subject percentage dropped. we dubbed it as the great downfall.

what did i do?

• i collected books on my own.
• set up my own library. the advantage of my library is the borrowing period is longer and there is no fine if they return late.

------ > now, the culture of the school hasn't changed much in a year but constant nagging and reminders that i put on my students (poor them..sigh), shows little change in their attitude. at least, they started borrowing books from me to start cultivating the reading habit among themselves. English is still a nightmare.

however, some of them are discouraged to read merely words in the books. they get boring easily.

now, i am trying to manoeuvre my goals into slightly different direction.

i encourage them to read graphic novels.it's funny, it's less serious.

i am still experimenting though..

we'll see the result next year (SPM 2009)

now, i agree with the fact that says Malaysians (not all) are lazy to read

the darling bud..

salam perkenalan...hi everyone...

it is my first trial at this bloging thingy though people are crazy about it nowadays...so technically, i am still a baby, a darling bud of flowers...my BFF, aunty aida has always persuaded me to try this new form of diary writing..she has been gugu gaga about it for ages! but it never gets into me, until recently...when my colleague, noonateha is always on her screen, updating her fettish towards Boys Over Flower actors and actresses (Junpyo & Jandi)..when Ustaz Amir and Ustaz Zaki conducted a session (during LADAP) called "Bengkel Membina Blog" and promoted their popular blog to the students and teachers..until it seems that everyone now has owned a blog except me...now..it really fires me up to have one, too, though i honestly do not know until when this passion will last...

for one that i know, i am a private person..i don't share my toughts...my thought is my personal, totally mine...and for these reasons, i am always a selfish,stingy person...and for these excuses as well, blogging for me is totally a "no-no", "will-never-happen-forever" situation, a waste of time and bla, bla, bla...

until Ustaz Amir said,

"Blogging ini adalah cara untuk kita berkongsi ilmu, menyampaikan pesan, menyebarkan dakwah...semoga apa yang kita lakukan ini akan diredhai Allah SWT"

these words inpire me to be a blogger -- to spread my knowledge, to share my experiences, to exchange opinions with others..

semoga apa yang dicoretkan di sini sentiasa mendapat keredhaan Allah SWT...Amin..

till then...