as pendulum swings..and i've become emotional..

Happy that sambutan sedekad Intesaber goes on smoothly.. Enjoy the moment very much especially with The ex students who came.. However...a bit rasa terkilan felt here: Forgive me if my statement is hurtful and Wrong..but as a teacher who started my career in 2008..the batch of 2008 is Considered as my first baby..was hoping to see many of 2008 faces during the event.. But..only 1 out of so many hundreds of Them came..thank you Shamilah Hasanah for coming.. I was quite disappointed..dulu ada juga saudara Fakhruddin yg sering menjenguk kami di sini.. Tetapi i understand his situation who is studying Abroad now.. Mungkin mereka mempunyai masalah yang tidak Mampu untuk dielakkan untuk menghadirkan diri.. Tidak mengapalah..cuma sbg seorang guru mungkin Terdetik satu conclusion bahawa batch 2008 adalah Batch yg tidak begitu menyayangi Intesaber Sebagaimana batch2 yg lain.. Mereka jarang datang melawat kami di sini.. Agak berbeza dgn batch2 2009-2011 yg sangat rajin datang beramai2 sekaligus memeriahkan suasana Di bilik guru...sbg seorang guru..jujurnya..perkara ini amat dihargai walau mungkin perasaan sebenar tidak pernah dinyatakan secara terang-terangan.. Akan tetapi..terubat jua rasa terkilan di hati ini Apabila anak2 dari batch 2009, 2010 & 2011 begitu Ramai hadir memeriahkan acara ini (sekadar mengambil Batch dr thn mula mengajar shj)..as an oldie, who has started to become emotionally attached now the presence of all of you meant so much to me.. Honestly..you guys really made my day! And for that..komawo..THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! note: batch2 awal dr thn 2004, 2005, 2006 & 2007 juga ramai yg hadir kerana terdapat begitu ramai wajah2 yang kurang Familiar hadir...dan terharu juga kerana melihatkan cara mereka melayani guru-guru mereka dgn ramah walau sudah lama tidak bertemu.. Yang dikatakan terkilan ialah apabila batch 2008 hanya 1 orang sahaja wakil walaupun diketahui ramai diantara mereka yang tinggal berdekatan dalam daerah Sabak Bernam ini dan sedang bercuti.. tetapi tidak dpt menghadirkan diri...tak mengapalah.. mereka pasti punya alasan tersendiri.. Untuk pelajar2 n bekas2 pelajar yang pernah bersama dengan teacher Huda..teacher sayang kamu semua walaupun korang selalu kena marah, kutuk & denda dengan teacher.. Setiap kali ungkapan "WE LOOOVEE TEACHER" lillahita a'la bergema di penghujung kelas.. Teacher selalu menjawab "ok..have a nice day everyone" Tetapi...dalam hati sering diikuti dengan ungkapan "teacher loves u guys too.." Cuma..ianya tidak pernah terluah dengan kata2.. Keegoan seorang dewasa yang menghalang teacher dari mezahirkan perasaan itu dengan kata2.. Maka..di kesempatan ini..let me tell u.. THANK YOU INTESABERIANS..BECAUSE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU WHO USED TO PASS BY MY LIFE HAS LEFT A MARK IN MY HEART THAT SHAPES AND COLOURS MY LIFE TEACHER LOVES YOU... BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU.. I CAN STILL SURVIVE THIS WORLD OF TEACHING.. THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN..

Ustaz Azhar Idrus' statement vs K-POP?

the time shows 2.42 am .. in the wee hours of the day I should have slept or done something more beneficial than being hooked up in front of this computer writing my thoughts... but again..the Internet speed is superb (UNIFI - when will u be available in Intesaber) and I just can't resist the temptation to catch up with my favourite drama for the time being Á Gentlemen's Dignity" Duh...Jang Dong Gun is in the lead cast..and still hunky and drooling even after 10 years since "All About Eve"... and I can't also refuse the opportunity of writing in this blog again after almost a long silence being put here... recently..I have been doing some intense reading that serves as an eye-opener to me..and also comes as the revealing, shocking and somehow refreshing knowledge...my faith is restored and I'm super patriotic now...well, will talk about this later; maybe in the next, separate post specifically dedicated for the topic..every single homo sapien who calls himself/herself as a Muslim Malay should read this..then think thoroughly..do discussions with friends, get second opinion from the experts and then make your own wise judgement... as for now..I am in a dilemma... as most people would have known by now I am a K-POP avid fan..everything about K-POP excites me...and seriously..I do admire those Idols and Hanguk actors/actresses - their determination to succeed..the efforts they put into their work and their passion for what they are doing... in my opinion, that's the secret for their huge, tremendous success in the entertainment world...those are the elements that I wish my beloved, bright and talented students would acquire: Determination, Continuous effort & Passion...but why can't people see this instead, rather than making the absolute conclusion that K-POP is BAD for the youth..I'm sorry..not being bias, but if you really know how the Korean entertainment industry works in producing those so well-loved idols; the system that they use, then, can't we just try to adapt, adopt or amend this system in our life so that success will belong to us - Muslims Malays? Ustaz Azhar Idrus said that K-POP itu HARAM (quote: My Mom told me this)...a statement that comes from a very respected person who is so knowledgeable in the Malaysia Muslim's world...his words put me in a dilemma... Me? A Muslim girl who is really obsessed with this? the reason I learn Hangul (able to understand little conversation by now) or went to Korea last CNY, like the Hanguk Cuisines (nay..they are 'mashinde'- delicious by the way) is because of my interest in the K-POP world...that's the serious dilemma..with the desire in wanting to be a good Muslim but at the same time can't resist the temptation to like this world...Nafsu yang perlu disekat? but again...I'm not a huge fan of the entertainment industry..I don't give a damn to Malaysian's artistes, not interested at all to monitor those Hollywood products and not able to bear the Bolloywood movies..hell no! (but I do update myself with news of Malaysia's and the world's industry for my general knowledge)...the only entertainment industry that enlightens me is K-POP/K-Drama/K-World...other than that, there is no passion at all... and knowing that Ustaz Azhar Idrus said that K-POP is HARAM...I am in a serious dilemma... teringat kembali akan artikel yang dibaca Alter Terahsia Bangsa Melayu...adakah daku sudah benar-benar terperangkap di dalam sistem Si Mata Satu? Ya Allah...bantulah hamba-Mu ini.. wallahualam... --HUDA--

hai..again..

Salam Been a long time since my last post...for quite some time, i lost the passion and the interest to write anything in here though there are abundant of issues playing through my mind all these while.. Well..been doing some intense reading recently and hoping that i will be able to share it here soon..a revealing knowledge, shocking n refreshing materials for me..insyaallah..after i have finished my work, i will start writing again..