"Meet them among others"

This is me, writing my feelings publicly since I am quite melancholic at the moment...

I can't seem to contain my bittersweet emotions because of this honey-bee couple that really steals my attention... 

The We Got Married "Gong-Lee" couple  Lee Jong Hyun (of CN Blue) and actress Gong Seung Yeon..it feels weird that I wish that they would end up together in real life and love bravely and generously despite all the crazy, delusional fans that don't want them to be real...err.. am I among those delusional fans? LOL! Strange enough, I wish all these for them when they are total strangers...why, I should be praying these things to happen for me instead, right? Since I am single, available and unattached to anyone romantically..as if my love cells have already died long time ago, since I'm not interested in anyone at the moment...but I seriously want these for them...Hahaha...

and here..this is them, sweet, aren't they? :)

  

And..here is the song that reflects them which I am currently listening repetitively on my playlist...

The original title of the song would be "meet him among them' 그 중에 그대를-만나 by Lee Sun Hee ... but I'll change it to "Meet them among others"

그렇게 대단한 운명까진

바란적 없다 생각했는데

그대 하나 떠나간 내 하룬 이제

운명이 아님 채울 수 없소

별처럼 수 많은 사람들 그 중에 그대를 만나

꿈을 꾸듯 서롤 알아보고

주는 것 만으로 벅찼던 내가 또 사랑을 받고

그 모든건 기적이었음을

그렇게 어른이 되었다고

자신한 내가 어제같은데

그대라는 인연을 놓지 못하는

내 모습, 어린아이가 됐소

나를 꽃처럼 불러주던 그대 입술에 핀 내 이름

이제 수많은 이름들 그 중에 하나되고

오~ 그대의 이유였던 나의 모든 것도 그저 그렇게

별처럼 수 많은 사람들 그 중에 서로를 만나

사랑하고 다시 멀어지고

억겁의 시간이 지나도 어쩌면 또다시 만나

우리 사랑 운명이었다면

내가 너의 기적이었다면

Meet Him Among Them

I never wished for fate

to bring us so close

Now that you're gone

my days are useless

Of all the people, I met you

It was like a dream

And the love I got from you

It was like a miracle

I thought I was ready

I was sure I'd be fine

But look where I am

I can't let you go

Of all the people, I met you

It was like a dream

And the love I got from you

It was like a miracle

You used to call my name

with the sweetest voice I know

But now I'm just another face

And everything I have

means nothing to me

Of all the people, we met

but we parted ways

Maybe we'll meet again someday

if we were meant to be

It'll be a miracle

They departed from the show already...and that's among the reasons why I'm having this withdrawal syndrome...be strong, heart...brave this phase and everything will be back to normal soon, hopefully...

Be happy to both of you, Jong Hyun & Seng Yeon...may this photo will be a reality some years ahead..oh, my shipper's heart and delusional mind :)

Life is picturesque.

I love this photo so much. (Credit to the genius photographer: Uncle Ikmal )

As to the people who have known me for quite sometime would already understand that, one of my must-do activities every year is travelling abroad. 

So guess...where is this? 

A famous place of course, Namiseom (in Hanguel)  or Nami Island, Gyeonggi-do,  South Korea. 

This photo was taken back in late November last year (my 2nd trip to the country but the first one to the place). It was during the changing season of Autumn to winter. That's why you could see yellow leaves on the ground but there was also snow falling at the same time.

Splendid, isn't it?

Objective of the photo above? To pose like models, as if we were making the cover for our album (the kind that singers often do for their songs' album...LOL)

As the conclusion for this entry, feast your eyes with superb nature offered by Nami Island: 

A lake across the place with a bridge connecting the separated lands

Ground view of the line-up pine trees

People talk. People smile. People laugh. People cry. 

These are emotions.

And among the extreme emotion is SHOUTING, SCREAMING or BELLOWING your voice out loud so that the world around you knows and understands your feelings. 

That's exactly what I feel like doing right now. But a sure thing for me to do is doing the other way around. That means NOT TO DO just exactly that. For I believe that letting yourself to be consumed with too much of radical emotion is BAD, in many sense:

i- BAD for your health (imagine the sore throat and migraine that will come afterward - nightmare!

ii- BAD for your beauty (smiling only takes 3 of your muscles to work but frowning takes more than 200 muscles! What's more with screaming! Your beauty sure will degrade tremendously!)

iii-BAD for your image (people will see you as someone who is insane? Worse,  when people assume that I am immature and can't handle my job professionally)

To me, there are MORE bad effects rather than GOOD effects. Sure, I would have felt immediate relief and instant satisfaction. But that's it. No more than that. Instead, to deal with the after effects is more hassle. Changing people's perception towards us is way difficult (usually this will last for months or years) than enduring your feelings alone. Life is about connecting with people (NOKIA has the right tagline), not isolating yourself and segregating people around you. That's why there are concepts of family, friendship, relationship etc. 

Therefore, I believe that being a rationale and mature person is important. You get a bonus if you are wise and knowledgeable too! 

And for all those reasons that I have stated, it's better to keep hold of my emotions, rather than letting it loose. Once, I was very good at it that people used to describe me as INDIFFERENT. I was  good once, why can't I do the same, now?


I'll end this entry with one of my favourite quotes:

It's the KEYBOARD!

Salam to all...

It has been soooooooooooo long since I last updated this blog...years ago (last entry was in July 2012!)...My gosh...2012 was like almost err...2 years ago? Haaa....dah bersawang pun blog ini ibaratnya....and if it is symbolised as a baby, the baby would have walked and run by now! Hehe...nay, for quite some times, I lost my passion in writing my thought publicly (but I still keep a conventional, personal diary though)...

Maybe...perhaps...probably, I will start writing again since my new keyboard is really, really, really a BIG temptation for me to run my fingers on it, pouring out my thoughts while listening to its' sound and feeling the smoothness of its' surface...It feels like...falling in love? Haha...that's too exaggerating, honestly, but somehow, this one really ignites my once put out passion and love towards blogging...and so now I believe that a tool is really important to a writer! (Hee...in the olden days,  it would be the pen that is important I guess, however, during this advance science and technology, the keyboard is very crucial - well, at least to me!)

As for tonight or morning? (my clock just ticked 12.11 am), I just wanna talk about how much my KEYBOARD has influenced me to write...just for less than 15 minutes, this 3-long-paragraph essay is the outcome of it...see, how powerful it is, my KEYBOARD (err...should I give a name to it?), words and sentences just keep flowing freely without any problems and puff! here is the product...hurm, shall I celebrate this result? 

Well, I guess this could be the new beginning ...we'll see how long it lasts...hehe...and even though I have lots of other things to write, but I 'll keep it to myself at the moment for my body already sends me a warning and signs of sleep deprive (been staying up late these days to complete the files for Nazir's observation)... till then, adios!

Teacher Huda on 09/05/2014
--Had an extra class with 5T  and loved their reaction tonight! TQ! You made me feel appreciated--

as pendulum swings..and i've become emotional..

Happy that sambutan sedekad Intesaber goes on smoothly.. Enjoy the moment very much especially with The ex students who came.. However...a bit rasa terkilan felt here: Forgive me if my statement is hurtful and Wrong..but as a teacher who started my career in 2008..the batch of 2008 is Considered as my first baby..was hoping to see many of 2008 faces during the event.. But..only 1 out of so many hundreds of Them came..thank you Shamilah Hasanah for coming.. I was quite disappointed..dulu ada juga saudara Fakhruddin yg sering menjenguk kami di sini.. Tetapi i understand his situation who is studying Abroad now.. Mungkin mereka mempunyai masalah yang tidak Mampu untuk dielakkan untuk menghadirkan diri.. Tidak mengapalah..cuma sbg seorang guru mungkin Terdetik satu conclusion bahawa batch 2008 adalah Batch yg tidak begitu menyayangi Intesaber Sebagaimana batch2 yg lain.. Mereka jarang datang melawat kami di sini.. Agak berbeza dgn batch2 2009-2011 yg sangat rajin datang beramai2 sekaligus memeriahkan suasana Di bilik guru...sbg seorang guru..jujurnya..perkara ini amat dihargai walau mungkin perasaan sebenar tidak pernah dinyatakan secara terang-terangan.. Akan tetapi..terubat jua rasa terkilan di hati ini Apabila anak2 dari batch 2009, 2010 & 2011 begitu Ramai hadir memeriahkan acara ini (sekadar mengambil Batch dr thn mula mengajar shj)..as an oldie, who has started to become emotionally attached now the presence of all of you meant so much to me.. Honestly..you guys really made my day! And for that..komawo..THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! note: batch2 awal dr thn 2004, 2005, 2006 & 2007 juga ramai yg hadir kerana terdapat begitu ramai wajah2 yang kurang Familiar hadir...dan terharu juga kerana melihatkan cara mereka melayani guru-guru mereka dgn ramah walau sudah lama tidak bertemu.. Yang dikatakan terkilan ialah apabila batch 2008 hanya 1 orang sahaja wakil walaupun diketahui ramai diantara mereka yang tinggal berdekatan dalam daerah Sabak Bernam ini dan sedang bercuti.. tetapi tidak dpt menghadirkan diri...tak mengapalah.. mereka pasti punya alasan tersendiri.. Untuk pelajar2 n bekas2 pelajar yang pernah bersama dengan teacher Huda..teacher sayang kamu semua walaupun korang selalu kena marah, kutuk & denda dengan teacher.. Setiap kali ungkapan "WE LOOOVEE TEACHER" lillahita a'la bergema di penghujung kelas.. Teacher selalu menjawab "ok..have a nice day everyone" Tetapi...dalam hati sering diikuti dengan ungkapan "teacher loves u guys too.." Cuma..ianya tidak pernah terluah dengan kata2.. Keegoan seorang dewasa yang menghalang teacher dari mezahirkan perasaan itu dengan kata2.. Maka..di kesempatan ini..let me tell u.. THANK YOU INTESABERIANS..BECAUSE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU WHO USED TO PASS BY MY LIFE HAS LEFT A MARK IN MY HEART THAT SHAPES AND COLOURS MY LIFE TEACHER LOVES YOU... BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU.. I CAN STILL SURVIVE THIS WORLD OF TEACHING.. THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN..

Ustaz Azhar Idrus' statement vs K-POP?

the time shows 2.42 am .. in the wee hours of the day I should have slept or done something more beneficial than being hooked up in front of this computer writing my thoughts... but again..the Internet speed is superb (UNIFI - when will u be available in Intesaber) and I just can't resist the temptation to catch up with my favourite drama for the time being Á Gentlemen's Dignity" Duh...Jang Dong Gun is in the lead cast..and still hunky and drooling even after 10 years since "All About Eve"... and I can't also refuse the opportunity of writing in this blog again after almost a long silence being put here... recently..I have been doing some intense reading that serves as an eye-opener to me..and also comes as the revealing, shocking and somehow refreshing knowledge...my faith is restored and I'm super patriotic now...well, will talk about this later; maybe in the next, separate post specifically dedicated for the topic..every single homo sapien who calls himself/herself as a Muslim Malay should read this..then think thoroughly..do discussions with friends, get second opinion from the experts and then make your own wise judgement... as for now..I am in a dilemma... as most people would have known by now I am a K-POP avid fan..everything about K-POP excites me...and seriously..I do admire those Idols and Hanguk actors/actresses - their determination to succeed..the efforts they put into their work and their passion for what they are doing... in my opinion, that's the secret for their huge, tremendous success in the entertainment world...those are the elements that I wish my beloved, bright and talented students would acquire: Determination, Continuous effort & Passion...but why can't people see this instead, rather than making the absolute conclusion that K-POP is BAD for the youth..I'm sorry..not being bias, but if you really know how the Korean entertainment industry works in producing those so well-loved idols; the system that they use, then, can't we just try to adapt, adopt or amend this system in our life so that success will belong to us - Muslims Malays? Ustaz Azhar Idrus said that K-POP itu HARAM (quote: My Mom told me this)...a statement that comes from a very respected person who is so knowledgeable in the Malaysia Muslim's world...his words put me in a dilemma... Me? A Muslim girl who is really obsessed with this? the reason I learn Hangul (able to understand little conversation by now) or went to Korea last CNY, like the Hanguk Cuisines (nay..they are 'mashinde'- delicious by the way) is because of my interest in the K-POP world...that's the serious dilemma..with the desire in wanting to be a good Muslim but at the same time can't resist the temptation to like this world...Nafsu yang perlu disekat? but again...I'm not a huge fan of the entertainment industry..I don't give a damn to Malaysian's artistes, not interested at all to monitor those Hollywood products and not able to bear the Bolloywood movies..hell no! (but I do update myself with news of Malaysia's and the world's industry for my general knowledge)...the only entertainment industry that enlightens me is K-POP/K-Drama/K-World...other than that, there is no passion at all... and knowing that Ustaz Azhar Idrus said that K-POP is HARAM...I am in a serious dilemma... teringat kembali akan artikel yang dibaca Alter Terahsia Bangsa Melayu...adakah daku sudah benar-benar terperangkap di dalam sistem Si Mata Satu? Ya Allah...bantulah hamba-Mu ini.. wallahualam... --HUDA--

hai..again..

Salam Been a long time since my last post...for quite some time, i lost the passion and the interest to write anything in here though there are abundant of issues playing through my mind all these while.. Well..been doing some intense reading recently and hoping that i will be able to share it here soon..a revealing knowledge, shocking n refreshing materials for me..insyaallah..after i have finished my work, i will start writing again..